I wanna be adored
Apr/090
I wanna
I wanna
I gotta be adoredThe Stone Roses – I wanna be adored
I’m pretty boring with my music.
Actually, given that my taste is somewhat unconventional, boring is perhaps a little harsh. But it’s certainly pretty static. Most of the time, I’m on my soundtracks playlist. It’s nice to have in the background, and nothing makes coding better than Anthem for Saving the World, Battle of the Heroes, The End Of All Things, Homecoming or One Last Shot.
I was orginally just going to list one song there, but then I thought it might be fun to play a little game. Can you guess where the songs are from? One is from a game, the rest are from movies. One was released solo, the rest are from trilogies.
Anyway, I’m listening to my rock playlist tonight. This generally only happens if I’m a little angry or worked up over something… which is the case. I was informed via a generic email that Westpac do not intend to offer me a graduate position next year.
Honestly, they were close to the bottom of my preferences list. I applied with the intent of getting additional interview experience – which I got. If I can get in contact with the HR department tomorrow, I’ll be able to find out what made them say no. On reflection, through rejection I’ll get more interesting feedback than if they’d accepted me.
Regardless… in the end, despite bravado and a very healthy ego, rejection still hurts. It’s actually worse because I was considering it to be practically set in stone. Hubris!
It has also refreshed some insecurities. I’m very reserved, and I don’t sell myself particularly well - personally or professionally. I thought I’d improved in that regard. Two and a half years ago I didn’t do well enough in the BIT interview process. I was very fortunate to get a second chance, and in my mind I’ve spent two years proving I should’ve been one of the first picked, not one of the last.
I don’t want to rely on another second chance.
I wanna be adored.